• Jessica Hazuda

Ask and You Shall Receive

I don't want to start this blog with saying shit, BUT I SHIT YOU NOT speaking things into the universe works. Okay, sorry for being unprofessional, I am a 24 year old with a blog that doesn't get more than like 20 views so I can say what I want. Ha, but actually thank you to literally the one person who reads my blog.

It's me I am the one person.

Our minds are truly powerful. We ourselves are powerful. I want to keep this post as basic as possible and not turn this into a 7 minute read of me trying to explain mindfulness and things in a terrible way without looking up any references out of laziness. So if you feel me, that's awesome if not well, I guess I explain things in a terrible way and you wasted your time reading this.

Let me paint you a picture. Or maybe let me say this, its really awesome being booked and creating work for myself that I never had the opportunity to before. Also, hi I have the worst case of imposter syndrome (oh jeez am I not supposed to admit that?) (also did I already say that in another post?) (wait what?) I feel like I am doing a great job on social media presenting myself in such a way of how busy I am with makeup and photoshoots, when deep down inside I truly do not feel I am that way at all. I feel like at times I am not spending enough time on my artistry or working. Or I get hard on myself if I was only able to do one makeup for that week. But, in all actuality doing one makeup a week is something. It then equates to four makeups a month and that is more than what I was doing before.

I guess I didn't even realize this until just now as I'm typing but I was helping my mom out with a task and I wasn't able to finish and naturally, I felt terrible about it. I go up to her and say, "I feel like I got nothing done there's all this stuff left to do. I only got x, y, and z done." She replied back with, "no you got a lot done. You spent time working on this task and that alone is an accomplishment. Don't worry about the amount or what is left to do. You were able to get this accomplished and that's all that matters." In that moment I walked away feeling better but not really taking it into deep thought. But putting all my thoughts down right now in this post it reminded me of our conversation. And I think it is a really important lesson. No matter how big or small the task/project/goal is if you were able to contribute only 25% to it or in my case only do 1 makeup a week than 4 or 5. Then, that in itself is something to be proud of.

Now to circle back into mindfulness. The exact definition of mindfulness is, "the practice of purposely bringing one's attention to experiences occurring in the present moment without judgment". Simply saying you are aware of what's going on in your life. This could be anything and everything to work to relationships etc. I pride myself in being aware of my career and the state it is in and how I want to go about elevating it. As I may not have mentioned prior, I am constantly trying to be booked and be busy with makeup. Without fail every time I journal or I have the conversation with myself "what's next?" it is like opportunity starts buzzing on my phone. Why is that? Why is it that every time I ask the universe for something I receive it? I'm not going to say just ask the universe for this one specific thing (but really when you talk to the universe or anything, God or a higher power be super specific) and it will be just handed to you. You need to put the actual work in. But, once you really start making changes for yourself and your surroundings to create space for those blessings to come into your life, well let me tel you those blessings come and then some.

I know what you're thinking "Jess how do I do that? How do I create the environment for these blessings?" Well young one, to create space you need to start BY BEING MINDFUL. Sit down, create time for yourself, CHOOSE this time for yourself and journal or meditate. Do something that's going to help you become aware of what you want and what's happening in your life from preventing that thing from happening and make that change. Traditionally this is done through mediation. If you want to change your life and are interested in Buddhism please read the book, "The Buddha Walks Into A Bar: A Guide to Life for a New Generation" by Lodro Rinzler. When I tell you this book changed my life!!!! I've read it like three times already and I learn something new each time. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is go do some research on how to actually meditate or read this book because they teach you proper techniques.

BUT ugh, I just want to get to my point, why do I have to say so much!!!

Go meditate, write out your thoughts and feelings and see how you can make those changes. Talk to the universe. Start small by saying "Thank you" to it for having a beautiful day and providing air to breath. Do what you have to to create the space to receive these blessings. That space can be an obstacle or a lesson thrown in your way you were not ready to pass. I promise you pass that lesson and see what is in store for you.

If you made it this far in this post, thank you for reading my subpar introduction post to mindfulness. I will leave you with this amazing quote from one of my favorite books,

"Before a dream is realized, the soul of the world tests everything that was learned along the way."

- Paulo Coelho from "The Alchemist"

PS I highly recommend this book. Also kind of judging you if you haven't already read this work of art. Okay bye.

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